Monday, January 19, 2009
Uncontrolably Emotional... How Ridiculous!
I have nailed down the single worst part of being pregnant... screw the getting fat, not being able to breathe, puking until you can't anymore. No all of those fail in comparision to the truth - I hate that I am so undesirable to be around!!! I could not control my emotions if I wanted to and I know that makes me no fun at all. I can't take any criticism, everything offends me, I hate our dog because she wants my attention, and I feel like I pick the dumbest fights! I do not understand (nor will I ever) how Jason can still want to wake up next to me and tell me how much he loves me everyday. I've never actually suffered from depression or anything like it, but now that I feel so down all the time, I cannot imagine living everyday like this. Atleast I know that someday these feelings will end. I am so thankful for the days when I wake up and am so happy! I say a quiet prayer that I will be able to continue to feel like this the rest of the day or any day I'm feeling down. I'm just so thankful for Jason and for the help he gives me. 6 weeks and I am counting every moment!!!
Throughout my late adolescense and adulthood, I have had many positions (professionally and volunteer basis) that have helped me develop skills necessary to serve as a liaison to the community on behalf of a professional organization. I have spent many years in various organizations which have helped me grow skills such as public speaking, note taking, and scheduling. I am proficient in organization and mediation – always keeping the mindset of finding middle ground and while meeting the needs of those involved. I excel in the area of community outreach and thrive in situations where I am given reign to be creative and managerial. I am committed to achieving the best outcome and feel I have many fantastic qualities to contribute to any organization.