Can I just say

How much I love my blog? After much construction, I love it's new makeover!!

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This place sucks... Tonight, I am in a dark place. I'm feeling so down!! I held back tears while putting David to bed because it meant that I would be by myself until Jason gets home from work. I feel like I'm always alone. Jason goes to school in the morning and works until 10pm. I have no job and no family close by. At church, I spend my time with 2 & 3 year olds. There is only 1 other person in Nursery with me who is older than my grandparents. I make Jason come to Nursery with me because sometimes I feel like I never see him. I can't get together with friends because some of them don't have kids and, therefore, want to do non kid friendly activities which I would totally be up for if it wouldn't require me to hire a sitter to participate. Sometimes it feels like my friends who do have kids don't want to get together with me. Jason and I do our best to get together with people - we've hosted 2 parties in the past 2 months. While we have definitely enjoyed the company, we don't feel that we should have to be the ones to organize it and host every time.

I am so lonely tonight

Our Fluffy Buns!

Once upon a time, I decided to try cloth diapering... and ended up loving it! Seriously, it's WAY easier then I anticipated (and I was giving it the benefit of the doubt!). I really don't understand why more people won't do it! Think about it. What are some "fears" about cloth diapering?:

Poop... why is everyone so afraid of poop?!?! You're going to touch poop at some point - even while changing a disposable! If it makes you that uncomfortable, go and buy some rubber dish gloves and wear those while changing a poopie cloth. Sure, it's a little more work than just tossing it into the trash, but is it really that hard to take a couple minutes out of the day to spray out a dirty diaper? I maybe spend an extra 5 minutes a day on diaper upkeep... worth it!

"They're just not as convenient as disposables"... Whatev! My bunGenius 3.0 are amazing! After washing, all you have to do is put the insert inside the pocket in the cover and you're set! Mine are even Velcro closure!! Jason wasn't sure what to think of cloths until we got them and he changed a diaper - even he says they're easy. If you're out and have to change a cloth, just change them like normal, and put the dirty in a ziploc bag. I made a cute little zipper bag for my ziploc to go in so I don't even have to look at the dirty... and no unsuspecting diaper bag snooper knows what it is either! lol... I can even still use my diaper champ - amazing!

"They're not cost effective"/"They're so expensive"... again WHATEV! We spent 4 months worth of diaper money up front and have diapers forever! We have to run the washer and dryer a couple extra times a week, but even then, it's still cheaper than the $25-ish we were spending a month on disposables.

Jason and I are very pleased with our decision to cloth diaper, David is happy as usual, and life is still going on as normal. Not to mention how ridiculously cute the diapers and David's new "fluffy bum" is. Probably my favorite feature of these diapers is that they will fit a baby from birth to potty training - now THAT'S a great investment!


Our Super Cute Stash

One Happy Boy!!

I have decided I am the only one who knows what's best for my child. After all, that's what the motherly instinct is for, right? David is 10 months old now. He can sit up, crawl, pull himself up, communicate what he needs, and is a GREAT sleeper. He has the cutest smile, the sweetest laugh and loves his Mommy & Daddy... what more can I ask for? I don't understand why people worry so much about what their baby is "expected" to do at a certain age. I think their is entirely too much stress in this world so why start putting stress on them at young ages... and why add the stress to your own life? Children are only babies for a short while. They are so perfect and so uninfluenced, why not learn from them instead of trying to teach them to grow up even faster? I don't like the idea of development charts & I can't stand it when people brag about their children based on what they say. I understand the need to express excitement, but when people are like "My baby is crawling! What's wrong with yours?!" I just want to shake them! Maybe that child has an undiscovered learning disability... maybe they're perfectly fine... either way, if someone has to "pick" on another child to make themselves feel better, it's ridiculous! One of my close friends has dealt with this lately and she almost cries every time we talk about it. ENJOY the moments! Relish in the fact that you have a strong bond with your child... they will become independent someday, but why make it happen any faster than necessary?

If David is happy, I am happy... that's the only standard I need :)

On another note... our cloth diapers shipped today! We should get them in the next couple of days and I'm so excited!

Tis the Season!

My status has fallen from "Trying to make an effort" Blogger, to "Top, Extreme Pretend" Blogger, lol. My update is long overdue... I feel as though it can be excused due to this glorious time of the year!

The Holidays are upon us - yay! This is our family's favorite time of the year! Jace and I always break down and start listening to Christmas music right after Halloween (ok, sometimes before!) and try sooooo hard to wait to decorate until after Thanksgiving... which we also couldn't wait for either. This year, we have a lot of changes. For starters, we have so many presents under the tree! I think we went a little spending crazy on a certain little one who doesn't really know what Christmas even is yet, lol. Another change is that we will be having Christmas all on our very own this year. Jason unfortunately has to work Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and the 2 days after. I'm excited for all the cooking I get to do, but I'm sad I won't be with my parents and brother on Christmas morning - the first time ever! I mean, not that I expected to always be with them, but I just expected we'd have more kids and be more established before we were setting family Christmas traditions. I guess I wouldn't be as sad if Jason would at least be home for David's first Christmas morning. He's got a great job and when you're in the medical field, you know that you're bound to work on these holidays... I'm just not used to the idea yet.

Well, our apartment is decked out in our Christmas best, presents are wrapped and under the tree, our lights are hung outside but there's something I really want to do for Christmas... keep Christ the center of our celebrating. Any ideas??? I can't think of how best to do it besides reading scriptures (we're actually reading about Christ's ministry in America right now in 3 Nephi - good timing, right?). I mean, our picture of the Savior we have hanging in our living room was covered up by the tree... I think we're off to a poor start, lol! Growing up, I knew the reason for Christmas, but I want my kids to focus on it more than I did when I was young. Yeah, David's only 9 months old, but might as well get started :)

The week ahead looks like cleaning and preparing for our party on Friday. We MIGHT get home early next week for a day or 2. I really need to reorganize everything... we just bought a washer and dryer and new TV so everything is kind of all over the place. Oh! We also got our Christmas pictures taken right before Thanksgiving! We went to the Picture People as usual and we wore our Christmas PJ's - it was too cute! Here's my fav:

Merry Christmas!

TEETH!!!!!

They've finally arrived! And with less excitement than I anticipated. All I've heard is horror stories about teething and how all he'll do is scream, but let's face it, I have the perfect child! LOL But seriously, I don't know why I worry so much about what others say, David has proven on a number of occasions to be a very calm and tolerant child for which I am highly grateful! Anyway, he has both bottom teeth and one on top. He has also started doing this hilarious smile where he scrunches up his face and has a very wide grin - it's so freaking cute! Someday I'll catch it on camera... it just happens so fast! His personality is really starting to show more, too. He's so much fun and will do anything to make me laugh - he's going to be a really fun kid!

It's a great month!

I thought that when I had a baby, I would have so much to blog about... yet I sit here and have few words. It's only the second day of the month and already November has been considerably warmer than October! Mother Nature's early birthday gift to me! lol I love winter - I really do, but summer was quite mild (which I would take over scorching temps) which means the cool weather came all too soon!

We had a terrific Halloween season! We went to our Trunk or Treat the weekend before Halloween and it was a lot of fun! David was the cutest cowardly lion, I was Dorothy and Jace was the scarecrow whose costume looked very similar to that of a lion, lol. Eh, we had fun! David got to "trick or treat" for the first time and passed out after visiting only a few cars - he was so sweet! We went out for a little bit on Halloween night, too, but it was too cold to stay out very long. Especially when the only person who dressed up couldn't even eat the candy he was collecting, lol. No big loss there.

David continues to amaze me every time we weigh him. He now weighs 19lbs 5oz and is 30" long!! He's definitely going to take after his daddy! He can get up on all fours and will probably be crawling soon... I cannot believe how big he is and how fast he's grown up! I was organizing his clothes a few weeks ago and I found the outfit he came home from the hospital in and almost started to cry! It was so teeny!! And it was BIG on him when we came home! I don't know what I'm going to do when he has his first day of school, starts driving, or is away from us for 2 whole years! I'll look back on these days and cry, lol.