Friday, December 17, 2010

It's kind of amazing

So, I recently reported about having to put a certain family member in time out. So far, no changes on their end but it's amazing the difference I feel. I really do feel liberated! I don't dislike this person and still think about them every day, but I no longer feel like I'm on edge constantly worrying about what's coming next or what they think. I always used to worry about what they would think about how I do things and now I just don't care. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I'm putting my self and my family first rather than this person's judgments. I don't care what they think of how I'm doing in school. I don't care what they think of me having Ainzley at home with a midwife. For a long time I've been able to have this attitude with other people but I've never had the back bone to do so towards this person. I've had so many people compliment me on my decision to be a grown up about the situation (minus calling it a "time out", lol) and sticking up for myself.... It feels good.

I hope hope hope that this time out doesn't have to last long. I miss the time I used to spend with this person before things got bad. I want them to be a part of our lives, but they need to know they way they are acting is not ok. After verbalizing this to them many times, I found I needed a way for them to easily understand just how serious about this I am... Fingers crossed that it sticks!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Good luck with everything Amy. I'm glad you stuck up for yourself because in the end, your cute little family is all that matters in this world. I hope this person realizes how lucky they are to have had you in their life. You are a wonderful person and I am always uplifted when we spend time together. It's unfortunate that some people feel like your choices are never good enough. I feel that way sometimes in my own life Hang in there and know that you have so many people who love and care about you.

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