...Without expanding my waistline...

This week has been CRAZY! Jason has been gone almost every morning this week and has had to work every evening which has left me home with a certain someone who not much of a conversationalist. Everyday starts the same for me. Wake up to David on the monitor, nurse him, feed him a real breakfast, eat my own breakfast, dress David, work out, shower, put David down for a nap, watch TV/be online and other ways of being unproductive, David wakes up and nurses again, then we eat lunch. Jason typically comes home shortly after lunch to spend less than an hour an a half with us before leaving for work... he doesn't come home until around 10:30 or 11 depending on how late his relief is that particular night (and they are ALWAYS late!).

Typically, Jason is only gone 2 mornings during the week for school and is home the other 3 (he's almost always completely free on the weekends). We run errands on Mondays which usually include WalMart/Aldi and JoAnn Fabrics... and MAYBE a stop at somewhere more fun like Petland, lol. Those mornings are basically my only time spent with another adult. Even at church my calling is in Nursery!!! I never get a heads up about Relief Society activities so I almost always miss those. AND David and I have been terribly sick for a week and a half so we haven't gone anywhere... I may cry.

I need something to do to cure my boredom! I used to sew or bake to entertain myself but since I have FINALLY completed those 20 dresses for Nixa High School, I'm not so into sewing at the moment. Not that I don't have plenty of projects to finish! I NEED to take a hiatus from baking for awhile. I LOVE cooking!!!!! Oh man do I love to cook & create new recipes! I'm afraid, however, that my figure does not love my obsession with cooking. Like a lot of people, I have jumped on the cupcake bandwagon... along with cookies and anything that looks yummy, lol. Sometimes I'll have a craving for cookies or cupcakes, make a batch, then (after eating 1 or 2) I'll send the rest with Jason to work or with the missionaries just so they don't sit around the house!

I'm rambling... anyway, back on course. I need a new hobby or activity to do that won't expand my waistline.

Ideas? Anyone?

How to Preface This...

I have a lot on my mind today... mainly about the same topic

When I was in 8th grade, my Grandpa (my dad's dad) passed away very suddenly. He went into the hospital on a Saturday morning and passed away the following Monday evening. It's been bittersweet for me watching the Olympics because he passed away during the winter Olympics in 2002. He was such a great grandpa! He was the Grandpa who never missed a softball game, always bought me a toy when we went to the store (very important quality to a 6 year old), he was very active and always full of love for his family. We always used to go to his (and grandma's) house on Christmas Eve to open gifts. I will always remember him rooting for his favorite team - Go Penn State! I miss him ridiculously to this day.


My Grandpa Sitler holding me all the way back in 1987.

Yesterday, I got an e-mail from my grandma (mom's mom) that instantly brought tears to my eyes - we just found out that my other grandpa has cancer. My Grandpa Brown is amazing. He has always been there for me with his sweet smile and room-filing laughter. He and my Uncle would always hold me down and tickle me until I was crying from laughing so hard. I know regardless of what happens in the near future, I will always be able to be with my Grandpas... but is it selfish for me to want to have my last grandpa for a little while longer in this earth life? Ok, selfish? Yes, understandable? I hope so...


5 Generations of my mom's family:
In the front, my brother & comedian, Alex.
On the couch from L to R: My Great-Grandma (mom's dad's mom), My Grandpa Brown, Me & David, & my Mom.
Back row: My Grandma Brown, My Great-Grandpa, & my amazing husband, Jason

Sick Days

Oh how I longed for sick days when I was younger! Staying home, curling up on the couch with my pillow and blankie - there was nothing better! I really needed one of those days today... but my little boy needed one more. David has had a runny nose for a couple days now and woke up today with an awful, phlegmy cough. He was acting completely normal for the most part. He usually takes 2 naps totaling about 3 hours, but not today, he took 2 naps only totaling 1.5 hours, so he was a little grumpy. He's not running a fever and I think his cough is bothering me more than him. I just feel so bad for him!!! I'm feeling pretty awful. I've had a lingering headache all day and I'm stuffed up! As strange as it sounds, the roof of my mouth hurts & I'm totally exhausted too, lol. What a day! Hopefully David and I will sleep well tonight and will wake up feeling better.

Can I just say

How much I love my blog? After much construction, I love it's new makeover!!

:(

This place sucks... Tonight, I am in a dark place. I'm feeling so down!! I held back tears while putting David to bed because it meant that I would be by myself until Jason gets home from work. I feel like I'm always alone. Jason goes to school in the morning and works until 10pm. I have no job and no family close by. At church, I spend my time with 2 & 3 year olds. There is only 1 other person in Nursery with me who is older than my grandparents. I make Jason come to Nursery with me because sometimes I feel like I never see him. I can't get together with friends because some of them don't have kids and, therefore, want to do non kid friendly activities which I would totally be up for if it wouldn't require me to hire a sitter to participate. Sometimes it feels like my friends who do have kids don't want to get together with me. Jason and I do our best to get together with people - we've hosted 2 parties in the past 2 months. While we have definitely enjoyed the company, we don't feel that we should have to be the ones to organize it and host every time.

I am so lonely tonight