All you need is love...

So, here's what I'vee decided on in the last week or so... I cannot depend on anyone but myself and Jason, lol. But seriously, it seems like I always get let down at some point so I'm done being so trusting and thinking that maybe someone could be different. I'm so greatful for Jason - He's the BEST! Somedays are rough, but it doesn't make sense to try and elan on anyone else... instead of trying to fix your relationship and make hurt feelings better, your just talking badly about the person you are going to spend eternity with. What is up with that?!?! So, one of my resolutions is to be better at it, to lean on Jason even if he's driving me crazy! I know this is a totaly tangent, but I know that Jason will never hurt me the way others always manage to and that he loves me no matter what - he's shown me that time and time again.

Anyway, so, my mom is currently in Jamaica and I am totally jealous!! I wish it were sunny and warm here, but alas, winter doesn't end just because Christmas is over, lol. I'm super excited about how awesome my relationship has gotten with my mom. I never thought things would be this good ever again after the whole wedding thing... and then the baby thing... but things are great and I love going out there to spend time with mom dad and alex. OK, now i'm just rambling b/c I'm trying to stay awake until Jason gets home, but I think he's out of luck, lol

Oh Saturdays!

Saturdays are the one day a week we ae given to get all of our projects out of the way - a nesting, pregnant woman's dream!! Except for me, lol. However, today was definitely different from most Saturdays. I still had to work at 8:30 am for my landlord and had a back ache when I was done at 12:30. So I took a break, had some lunch, and got right back to work on my own stuff! I cleaned my house (well, part of it), made a gerocery list, went shopping, then felt guilty about asking Jason to come with me because I realized that he is fasting, lol. Then we got home, did some laundry, and UNdecorated our house from Christmas. Now I am finally sitting down to the internet and watching My Big Fat Greek Wedding - such a funny movie! Oh... and watching my belly move from the little man kicking me on the inside, lol.

I cannot believe that in a few short weeks (about 9) Jason and I will be holding our sweet little boy! I have been having such a fun time getting ready for him to come. I love all the gifts we've been fortunate enough to get and have had a great time shopping for the few things we've bought. I love it when Jason just randomly tells me how excited he is. I just wish we had a name picked out!! I guess when the time comes for us to ABSOLUTELY have settled on a name, we'll love whatever we pick, lol.

2009, PLEASE let me be wiser!

Jason and I had so much fun last night!! Mom drove all the way to our house basically just to pick up our puppy for us (she is awesome!) and we went to the doctor's office. I love going to the doctor's office! He's very quick to praise me which I feel like I need these days! My weight gain has been awesome, I don't call him 15 times a day with the same problem and he is very supportive of my choice to deliver naturally - yay! He's a very awesome guy and I am stoked! Then Jason and I ran some quick errands and got lunch at Applebee's (Thanks to my grandma for the gift card!). We went out to my mom and dad's house after that... Since they picked up Molly for us, I didn't want to blow them off. So we spent time here. Mom and I went to the store while Jason, Alex and my Dad played Baseball on the Xbox. Then I went to dinner with my friend from high school, Ashli and we had a blast! It was only about 45 minutes from the time we got there, ordered our food, ate, and got the bill. However, we ended up staying there for almost 3 hours just talking. We saw soooo many people we knew coming in and out so our table number would grow and decrease in size, but it was a lot of fun. I went straight from dinner to my friend Jamie's house where my family and Jason were waiting for me. We didin't stay too terribly long because I was getting pretty tired. So we came home and I fell asleep, but Jason woke me up just in time for New Years! I to watch the ball drop, got my kiss, ate some cereal, and went back to bed, lol.

Upon waking up this morning, however, all I can think about is one particular worry. The details are irrelevant, but I'm basically getting screwed over by someone who I NEVER thought would do this to me... and it makes me really sad. This isn't the first time where this person has been two faced with me and I'm just so shocked. That they would continue to do this to me and that I would let it. It's been going on waayyy too long. It's not like I can avoid this person, either. I just feel so hurt that they're not even pretending to be understanding or sympathetic of the situation at all. I guess it hurts so bad because, like I said, I never would have expected something like this from them. I don't even know how to approach the situation... I'm just at a loss and Jason doesn't know what to do either. It's just irritating how this person always says how willing they are to help if I ever needed anything, and now that I do (and it's not an outrageous request), I'm being told "Ummmm, I guess you better figure it out" Not a direct quote, but if they would actually say something to me instead of through the grapevine, I'm sure it would have sounded a lot like that. Thanks

So please, 2009, let me be wiser in the company I keep, the choices I make, and how to be compassionate to people who are in need... And then let me be an example to this person.

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!

This year has been so great! We changed a couple things up from our normal "traditions", but I actually think it went waayyy better and was a lot less stressful. Yesterday was Christmas with my dad's siblings and mom and today we're having Christmas with my immediate family and with mom's siblings and parents later.

I hope everyone is having an AWESOME Christmas!!!

Half way lazy Saturday

Oh Saturdays... the day of the week when we get to sleep in or watch Saturday morning cartoons or eat a nice breakfast. Only, not so much for us! Saturdays are the days when Jason and I do most of our work for our landlord. This week wasn't so bad, though. We had already gotten half our hours out of the way during the week which makes me feel so much better! Normally, I'll do about 4 or 5 hours of work and Jason does the rest because it is getting just too difficult to be on my feet that many hours! Jason is such a hard worker... he does all those hours and never once complains. I am so dang lucky! Now Jason is playing a video game while I do some blogging and laundry, lol.

Tomorrow is the Duree family Christmas party. Then Wednesday and Thursday will be spent between my parents's house, my dad's mom's house, and my aunt's house - busy busy! Jason and I havee already exchanged gifts... kinda, lol. I wanted to get Jason the Lord of the Rings Risk board game so I looked for it EVERYWHERE! But no one had it because it is out of print now so I had to win it on ebay and I did!! It hasn't arrived yet and I don't think it will until after the holidays with the crazy weather that we've been having. Jason is getting me the nursing wrap I fell in love with! Basically, it's a cover/bib that I can put around my neck that will cover me and the baby while I'm nursing - very modest and an awesome idea! We're going to pick it up on Monday - yay!

Speaking of Monday, we are going to tour Labor and Delivery at St. John's that night and I'm kind of excited I guess, lol. It just makes it more official that I'm having a baby and soon! Only 2 months!!! Jason and I are so excited to meet our little guy. We went for our last follow up ultrasound on Friday for the baby's brain cyst and they said the cyst is completely gone!! I love the ultrasounds - We got to see him yawn! As the ultrasound tech said, "I love it when babies act like babies!" So we got some more printed pictures and a lot more on the CD they gave us the first time. I cannot wait to see what he looks like and to start seeing his personality! All I know is that he hiccups just like Jason - when either of them gets the hiccups, they have them for a very long time, lol. Oh, and he likes to kick my ribs/liver, lol

Christmas time!

I am happy to report I am FINALLY getting better! The first couple days were absolutely miserable, but I went on antibiotics for about 5 days and starting getting much better. I still have an riduclous flow of mucous (gross I know), but it's not uncontrollable.
With one week until Christmas, I am getting so excited! We've been having snow, but it's not the fun kind... it's the kind that makes you afraid to get in your car because you know when you do, your car will be ice skating, lol. I am pretty sad, though... this weekend, mom and I were supposed to get together and bake Christmas cookies, but the only day she has available is Saturday and I have to work for my landlord that day. I definitely miss baking with Mom at Christmas time! Another thing I look forward to at Christmas is gift giving... but it's not what you think - I LOVE the gag gifts! lol... I'm thinking some people are concerned that I'm going to give stupid or redneck gifts or something... idk. But I have the most awesome gag gifts that I've been recycling since I was in high school. I'll probably have to go easy with Jason's family since apparently everything I do is weird of stupid.
So Jason and I went to the doctor yesterday and he is getting pretty excited for the baby to come! He's the Dr who delivered me and both of my brothers. He said I am doing awesome with my weight gain (I still haven't gained back everything from when I was super sick and I didn't gain anything in the last month - yay! Especially since we went on the cruise a couple weeks ago, lol). Tomorrow we have the 7 week follow up with the specialist for the baby's cyst. We'll have another ultrasound and are expecting great news!
One thing I've noticed about this Christmas is that when everyone asks me what I want for Christmas, I have no idea what I want! lol, I told mom that I wanted kitchen stuff, but beyond that... i just don't know. Nor do I really care, lol. I'm just getting excited to spend time with my family and not have work!!! yay!

Crying on the floor

As pathetic as the title sounds, it's basically all I can do at the moment. I got a cold about a week after my birthday (around the 18th or so) and it was VERY hard to get rid of. Being preggo, there's not much I can take except Sudafed and Tylenol. Of course they're very gentle and don't really help much. Anyway, I finally managed to be almost back to normal right before leaving for my cruise on the 30th. But, of course, one particular person I was traveling with was sick... my father in law. Eventhough he's been around countless pregnant women over his lifetime (50 + years), he STILL doesn't understand that bringing germs around us is the worst idea EVER. Now I am sooo sick and feeling awful. I can't sleep at night because I am so congested, I get so congested at times that I can't swallow, and my chest and back hurt so bad! Before everyone thinks I'm an awful person for blaiming Jason's dad, let me explain - he didn't have to go on this trip because he didn't even pay to! He lucked into a ticket because my brother in law is gettinng married and couldn't go. Second of all, if you are sick, take care of yourself before you go around big groups of other people.

I am just sitting here feeling truly miserable. Jason is at class so I am all alone, too. He hasn't eatten dinner so I know when he gets home, he'll be hungry and I don't have the energy to get up and do it. I know he doesn't expect it, but I'm his wife and want to take care of him just as well as he takes care of me. Anyway, I'm done being pathetic for the day. I don't really know who to talk to this about and since reading my blog is optional, I figured this would be a good place - so no complaining about my complaining!!!!!